I wake up and I feel nothing. nothing. I’m not happy but I am also not sad. im just here. i wonder many times how many people are there that feel that way, that feel nothing. I feel like i do not belong here anymore, like my time here has run out. its time for whatever comes next and that is so scary. are we just fooling ourselves? is there any hope left. they say that relationships are supposed to be built on a promise and dreams, I have broken too many promises and i don’t know what my dreams look like any more. I fee like I’m lost down a road that has no turnaround, at least not for a while. So down my road I go, I’m just looking at the trees and the animals along the way.